A thought at 3:37am

Loving some one
who didn't love you in return
is a fatal thing...
just like your heart
was keep on beating
while it was actually ill..
for it beats for others
and never for
itself...
and since it was ill,
the blood that it carries
always spills.

Such A Lucky Day

While I was in high school, since I was the eldest sister I should go with my four younger siblings to our school, I shouldn’t leave them, we must go together to school…

Since they are too slow to move, we were always late…

That time I was in a hurry because we were having our long quiz on my first subject…

I must be early…

But I can’t leave my younger siblings…(paulit-ulit noh? – repeated?)

And so I go with them….

We’ve wait for a jeep to ride…

Then it came, we rode onto it…

Since I was the eldest I was the one who will distribute our allowance…

And since we were riding on a jeep, it’s like we were seating on a rocking chair….

Suddenly, the coin that I’m holding which is Php.0.25 fell down on the artificial red leader seat and stocked between the seat and the place where you can lean on…

As I’m reaching for the coin, instead of a coin I’ve reached a paper like thing….

I took out my hand to find out and see what it is…

I was surprised…

It’s a hundred peso bill…(Wow! What a nice surprise)….

Nobody but us was the passengers of that jeep…

So I decided to keep it…as they said “finders’ keepers”…Haha…

Then as we arrived in the school, the principal was out so we will not perform the flag ceremony by ourselves…Haha…

And the last good thing that happened was the long quiz was suspended….

why?

Because there was a faculty meeting that will last for long hour….SWEET!

Even I was late, still everything was great.

Lesson learned: When you’ve lost something, it will return to you much better than you’ve lost before.

Not So Sure (Fooled by eyesight?)

This happened when I was in high school, this story was true to live story...I guess...well...
I'm not scared anyway...I don't believe in ghost either...
but then everytime I remember this story there's some questions popping un in my mind...
was it a ghost? Or an illusion maybe?

Here how it goes...

It was morning then, a bright shinny day for me...
my father ask me to took care of our shop, it was actually a hardware store - it's
where you can buy stuff like paint, hammer, nail, sandpaper etc...that turns into a shop
that repairs electrical appliances...
Then since it's early morning, the lights are off...
I was watching television...
Then there were two wooden office table in our shop that contains two huge televisions above it,
about 19 to 20 inches of size each...
It was located on my right side, about 4 feet in distance...
Between the T.V.'s there was a gap, I think about an inch or two...
since I've been watching T.V. near at the table...
in my peripheral view I saw a woman between the gaps, behind the tables...
wearing violet blouse and used to fixed her hair...
I thought it was my mom, because every time my mom was about to leave the house
she used to seat on the chair behind that tables with T.V.'s to fix her hair...
then I stood up to get some water...
the path was beside the table...
I walked straight beside the table...
In my mind, and since I saw it again and even saw the woman as a whole in my peripheral view...
I really thought it was my mom...
I even ask her where she will go while I'm passing through but she doesn't speak up...
so I walk through and went inside the house to reach the kitchen...

and guess what...

my mom was there... and took bath of our dog...
she's even wearing red duster which she used to wear when she's at home...

How come that I've saw her before wearing violet blouse?...

then I ask my mom...

'mom what are you doing here?..
how come that you're here wearing another clothes in just a sec?...'

my mom said...

'what?...Are you crazy?..I've been here since early...'

I just pause for a while and think...
I'm not that sure, my probability is just 80 to 90 percent since I only saw it on my peripheral view...
since then, though I don't believe in ghost there were some instances that I doubt...
Does ghost really exist?
Then I just told to my self that they are just part of illusions....

Thoughts as Drawing

When I have time I used to draw things and put some thoughts onto it.

The Creation of My Hand

This are the drawings that I made before...well they're all gone now...because I'd already gave them to my friends...nothing left to me but these pictures..but then I'm happy because they appreciated the creation of my hand.

My prof said...

Did you know that criticism is not about negative? Maybe some of us know that already...but then my prof said that criticism was giving a comment w/c maybe positive or negative, wanted or unwanted...(",)

"KILL THE PAIN"

I work hard for the things I want, I work harder for the things I need,... But even I work harder even hardest for a person I love, still wont work. ...the harder I work for it the harder it gets to reach...the pain last within... shall I give up to win?..and stop the feeling for an ease?
Beneath my mind that tells to forget...then what will happened next?...If the feelings of mine shall die, tears will fall and I will cry...and so my heart will die.

The Feeling

Love can provide the sweetest feeling you could ever feel.....
and love could also provide the most painful feeling ever.